Adieu to my love, John

A week ago today, I bid adieu to the love of my life, my husband, my friend, and my life partner. Since January 2010, when John was initially diagnosed with Glioblastoma IV, I knew this day would come, but….despite everything, I was never really prepared.  The adventure that John and I embarked upon twenty-five years ago, came to an end. Life was an adventure to John and I am the luckiest person on the face of this earth to have shared those glorious times with him.

Anyone who came in contact with John was immediately drawn to his cheerful and humorous nature. Nothing was depressing in life for him, rather, he made it to be an exciting and alluring event. I would often marvel at his amazing sense of humor and the manner in which he could bring laughter and joy to everyone around him. John woke up early every morning, full of life and ready to enjoy the day to the utmost.

As an educator, John was spotted for his innovative techniques early on and moved on to the Missouri State Department of Education. Involved in several educational programs, John laid the ground work for the Eolia Vocational School, known today as the Pike-Lincoln Technical Center, a massive vocational training center catering to schools and adult education, and served as Director.  John’s success was noted and he was selected to be the Director of the Vocational Division of the Special School District of the St. Louis Metropolitan area. This was just the start of the incredible journey that John was to embark upon, leading him to initiate a training facility in Saudi Arabia, known today as the Al Jubail-Al Sinayah University.  John was recruited to head the largest energy sector project in Lahore, Pakistan and this is where I met and married John. Even our wedding day was an adventure! Life took on a fast paced and forever exciting tempo and John continuously worked for various projects in Dhaka, Bangladesh, Nepal, India and Afghanistan. Life was music and John and I danced, laughed and had a ball!

Wherever John went, he left his mark and I am so proud of have been his partner.  Even during the last two years, undergoing three brain surgeries, John kept a positive and upbeat attitude.  His main concern at all times was for everyone else.  I am not the only one who was infatuated with John. His friends in the States and all over the world have sent in their respect and love. My thanks to everyone.

How do I fill in a short blog and post everything about John….I really can’t. Dear Evanlee, who came over during the last week, rightfully said “you could write a book”….I truly could.  My love is gone from this earth but not from my heart. He is most definitely in a better place and I know that we will meet again, wherever….however.

My love, this picture of yours says everything about you. I will say adieu….I love you.

 

Comments (210)

EdithMay 26th, 2012 at 10:36 am

Oh, Sadia, my heart goes out to you!
So very sad to lose a loved one.
Edith in Dallas TEXAS USA

Melody♪♫May 26th, 2012 at 10:37 am

Oh Sadia ~
So sorry your soulmate has passed. I pray beautiful memories to comfort you when the pain of sorrow is the greatest.

Jean C. LongMay 26th, 2012 at 10:38 am

Dear Sadia, My sincere sympathy and prayers that your wonderful memories will help sustain you.

NinaMay 26th, 2012 at 10:38 am

His life sounded amazing and you were there to enjoy it ..God bless and keep you.

Hannah SommerMay 26th, 2012 at 10:38 am

I am so sorry, but very glad for you and John that you met and had a wonderful
life together. With my very best wishes for you.

missy bMay 26th, 2012 at 10:39 am

Sadia,
So sorry to read about John. I know he will be missed. You and your family are in my thoughts.
hugs,
missy

Elaine DawsonMay 26th, 2012 at 10:40 am

Oh Sadia, How sad I am for you. I have tears in my eyes as I write this. I am so glad to read your wonderful tribute to this man. It shows that he truly was the love of your life!
May the angels greet him and lead him into heaven.

RhodaMay 26th, 2012 at 10:41 am

I am so sorry to hear of your loss. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.

LoriMay 26th, 2012 at 10:42 am

Sadia, I’m so sorry that you lost your husband and life partner. Beautiful tribute to him and his life.

Rhonda RosenberryMay 26th, 2012 at 10:44 am

You were so blessed to have had a love such as the two of you shared.
My thoughts are with you in your time of loss , but know that he waits for you in a better place.

LaRhondaMay 26th, 2012 at 10:44 am

My heart goes out to you in your time of loss.

Karen RappMay 26th, 2012 at 10:45 am

Beautiful just beautiful. John was just as lucky to have you!!

Jennifer WolfMay 26th, 2012 at 10:45 am

Rejoice in your memories and he will be with you always.

Thala WolinMay 26th, 2012 at 10:46 am

Sadia, I am so sorry to hear about John. What a wonderful life you two have had together. I send my love and sympathy to you and your families.

Rita LongMay 26th, 2012 at 10:46 am

I am so sorry for your loss. I am happy that you have such wonderful memories.

Linda CoueyMay 26th, 2012 at 10:46 am

Sadia, My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Sandy LMay 26th, 2012 at 10:47 am

Sadia: My heart goes out to you. My Lifes Love is starting to fail himself and I know the end is not to far.We have been together 43 years. Time goes so fast. You are never ready. I will pray for your peace of mind. Know you have a lot of friends around the world thinking of you.
Sandy L

Phyllis In OK/USAMay 26th, 2012 at 10:47 am

Sadia, I am so sorry for your loss and send my deepest sympathies to you and yours. May this silent prayer for you across the miles, ease the pain and comfort you in your hours of despair. No words, spoken or printed, can ease the inner feelings, yet life will proceed. The wonderful memories in your heart and mind, will long remain with you as each day passes. No greater loss we endure, is the loss of our partners in life. I have been there and know the feelings you have now, but know this. In time, God will provide you with healing, and bring back lighter days and nights for you.
Again, my condolences to you and yours.

Connie JordanMay 26th, 2012 at 10:47 am

Sadia, This is a lovely tribute to your partner in life. My husband and I have been together since we were in high school, married in 1967. I can not imagine my life without him in it…but we must go on. Prayers go with you and keep those happy memories close to your heart.

Carma Lee JensenMay 26th, 2012 at 10:48 am

Dear Sadia,
Sending my love and best wishes. I can understand your feelings, I was fortunate to be married to a wonder husband and father of our six children for 42 years before he passed away at the age of 62 after surviving Multiple Myalom for three years.
I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. You are a very talented and generous, lovely lady and an inspiration to many. I wish you comfort, and good health and happiness.

Augie W.May 26th, 2012 at 10:49 am

I lost my husband a week after our 20th anniversary three years ago. I still feel him beside me, watching over me, and I will always miss him. We were kindred souls, married later in life, I truly believe, the one love, soul mate, I was brought on earth to be with. He died of a brain hemorrhage, he was taken from me too soon. I hear the pain you’re feeling.
So sorry for your loss.

Dianne PomeroyMay 26th, 2012 at 10:50 am

Sadia, having gone through this with the loss of my husband, I just want to offer my sincere condolences on the loss of your husband, John. there will forever be an empty space in your heart that you can attempt to fill with memories. The space will never fill up. New memories will continue to arrive. They are endless and will comfort you in your loss.

Susan galbreathMay 26th, 2012 at 10:51 am

I am so sorry for your loss.

SandyMay 26th, 2012 at 10:51 am

So sorry to hear of John’s passing. May you find find peace during this time and keep on remembering the great times together.

Judy WhitleyMay 26th, 2012 at 10:52 am

I am so sorry for your loss. Your life together sounds magical, but makes the loss even more profound.

Take heart in the good memories and the fact that so many of us are thinking of you and wishing
you well in this sad and difficult time.

Regards, Judy Whitley

Lois DorrellMay 26th, 2012 at 10:52 am

Oh, Sadia, I am so saddened with this news. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.

JoyceMay 26th, 2012 at 10:52 am

Sadia, I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I know what you are going thru right now and I know that there are no words that will help. I will keep you in my prayers.

Carma Lee JensenMay 26th, 2012 at 10:53 am

sorry I misspelled Myeloma. For those that do not know Multiple Myeloma is cancer of the bone marrow

Bea N.May 26th, 2012 at 10:53 am

What a beautiful tribute. John sounds like a wonderful person. I am certain you made him just as happy as he made you.
My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Bea

Judy EsterleinMay 26th, 2012 at 10:55 am

Oh, Sadia, I feel your pain. I lost my life thirty years ago when suddenly he passed away with a heart attack. But, as you say, the best of lives and they live on eternally in our hearts and we will all be together again. It is so hard, but we feel them guiding us daily and trying to make them proud of how we handle ourselves without them, but we do because of them. Please accept my most sincere sympathies and know you are NOT alone, now or ever.

JanetMay 26th, 2012 at 10:58 am

What a touching tribute to your husband. You have my deepest sympathies. May you be granted the strength to get through this difficult time.

Evelyn ColbyMay 26th, 2012 at 10:59 am

There truly are no words other than I am deeply sorry for your tremendous loss. May you be covered with the love of Heaven.

Pam GMay 26th, 2012 at 10:59 am

Sadia, I’m so sorry for your loss. I will keep you in my prayer.

Eileen HansenMay 26th, 2012 at 11:00 am

what a beautiful tribute to your Husband John.It is good to have those memories of those we Love when they are no longer with us . Thank you for sharing your tender story. Eileen

Diane GavuraMay 26th, 2012 at 11:01 am

The story you wrote about your husband is absolutely beautiful. You will never, ever forget the wonderful memories the two of you made. Eventually your grief and no one know how long it will be when the sun will shine once again. I feel your pain and I know what grief is, for I have lost both of my children. I won’t tell you I know how you feel, for that is something no one knows but you. What I will tell you, you have my love, my support and my prayers, for God will guide you through. One day and no one knows when that will be, the sun will shine brightly for you. You will know then John is your guardian angel from heaven who will watch over you forever and a day.

Shirley MangumMay 26th, 2012 at 11:03 am

I am so glad you had such a wonderful life; a partner who obviously felt the same about you. I know he hated to leave you alone, but you are right in knowing he is now pain free and in a better place. This cannot have been an easy time for either of you, but it sounds as if you shared every moment that you could. I remember meeting him when he manned your booth. So very personable. Dear, Sadia, I am so sorry for your loss. Have so enjoyed your talents and wish for you peace in your time of grief.

Patricia EbelMay 26th, 2012 at 11:04 am

Sadia, I am so glad you have such wonderful memories to help you now. Being married to our best friend is the best blessing we can have, in my opinion. You are in my prayers.

CarolMay 26th, 2012 at 11:04 am

It is difficult at a time like this to find words adequate to express condolences for your loss. May you be given peace as you are encircled in the arms of loved ones. The sting of death will lighten, but the hole in the heart is tenderly forever. That is ok.

LindaMay 26th, 2012 at 11:07 am

Sadia,

I cannot begin to tell you the feelings I have for your loss. My condolences to you.

Constance DavisMay 26th, 2012 at 11:08 am

Sadia, I’m sorry for your loss.
Although each relationship is unique, I feel for you as I also lost my husband and best friend a year and a half ago.
Hold your wonderful memories tight and be secure in the knowledge that ultimately life does go on.
Regards,
Connie in Bermuda

CherylMay 26th, 2012 at 11:10 am

My thoughts are with you, Sadia. Take care of you.

Kathryn BridwellMay 26th, 2012 at 11:12 am

So sorry to hear this news. You will truly meet again someday.

PatMay 26th, 2012 at 11:12 am

My thoughts and prayers are with you at this very sad time. May God give you His Perfect Peace.
Pat

Mary Lou ZoellerMay 26th, 2012 at 11:12 am

I’m truly so sorry to hear of this news. No words can describe my feelings. Please accept my condolences.

Dottie N.May 26th, 2012 at 11:14 am

Beautiful, Sadia…..John was a WONDERFUL person, and he’ll live in all your memories. Much love, dear friend.

Alice ClancyMay 26th, 2012 at 11:16 am

Sadia I’m am so sorry for your loss

Vi LarimoreMay 26th, 2012 at 11:16 am

Sadia,

My deepest sympathy. I was an old friend from AEC quite a few years ago.

Vi Larimore

Cindy TuckerMay 26th, 2012 at 11:19 am

Your lost is great, however your love for each other is greater.
During this difficult time, may you find comfort in knowing of your love for each other.
God Bless

Nancy White LeeMay 26th, 2012 at 11:19 am

Dear Sadia,
I am so sorry to learn of John’s passing. I met him only once and he was such a gentle person with a wonderful sense of humor. My thought go out to you.

Wanda DosterMay 26th, 2012 at 11:20 am

Sadia, it was with a heavy heart that I read about your loss. John, like my husband Henry, was an unusual man and I wish that I was as talented with using words as you are! Yesterday would have been our 42nd anniversary so today is a sad day for me and I can sympathize and empathize with you. I lost my beloved Henry 2 yrs. ago on March 30th after having been told only 5 days before that he had aggressive, small cell lung cancer and that he might have a month left. The month was not to be…he didn’t awake after receiving pain & anxiety meds……I was blessed that I didn’t have to watch him suffer but neither was there enough time to say our goodbyes. So, in every situation there is good and not so good. Just know that you have friends who will help you adjust and you will have all your wonderful memories of John. Take care of yourself physically as grief can compromise your immune system and let the tears flow…they will be healing. Thanks for sharing your experience with us!

AmyMay 26th, 2012 at 11:22 am

I am so sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Written words can’t express my thoughts.

Barbara GordonMay 26th, 2012 at 11:23 am

Beautifully posted. Sorry to hear about your lose, but so glad that you had so many nice years to remember him and the things you did together and for others to. Nice photos of boy you and him together and then him alone. My prayers are with you….

Geri DeBoerMay 26th, 2012 at 11:24 am

Dear Sadia,
I am so sorry for the loss of the love of your life. what a beautiful testiment to marriage and love. I am in awe of your commitment to each other.
Take care dear lady.
Geri in anchorage

Jan TaylorMay 26th, 2012 at 11:24 am

I am so sorry to hear about John. Remember the good times and keep in touch.

Linda IsraelsMay 26th, 2012 at 11:26 am

Sadia, I am so sorry. This is a beautiful tribute to John and his life. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Syed Musaddeque HossainMay 26th, 2012 at 11:31 am

state-of-art revelation of John’s silhouette, whom I admire and respect as friend, guide, counselor. He was and is still –

Dr. Andrews is a gift from God
He bring us joy and happiness
And help us in times of need
That’s why I can truly say
How glad I am I had this friend.

ChereMay 26th, 2012 at 11:33 am

My Dear Sadia: I am so saddened to hear this news. A couple of years ago I knew something must be seriously wrong with John but I didn’t want to intrude on your privacy. This years must have been so very difficult for both of you, knowing that, sooner, rather than later you would say goodby to each other. I pray the days to come bring up those wonderful memories of John and the great adventure you had together. If you need anything, even a cyber hug, please know that I am here. Hugs and prayers, Chere

Blenda DavidsonMay 26th, 2012 at 11:34 am

Help and comfort for youand a tight hug please take one day at a time Blenda in Texas

Janet BeardMay 26th, 2012 at 11:34 am

Sadia,
Iam sending my warmest thoughts your way. I only met John once at the AEC when you couldn’t be there and I could tell right away he was someone very special.
Sending hugs,
Janet and Nathan

Barbara LiedtkeMay 26th, 2012 at 11:43 am

Please accept my sincere sympathy on the loss of your life partner. May you continue to be blessed by your life with and memories of him. I wish you peace.

FavyMay 26th, 2012 at 11:44 am

My prayers are with you today as I read of your loss and deep grief. You were indeed blessed to have such a love to share your life with. May you find great comfort in remembering your memories.

AliceMay 26th, 2012 at 11:45 am

I’m so sorry for your loss..My husband has been fighting three cancers for three years.Two serious and the other just skin cancers.We have been together for almost 50 years so hopefully we still have more time but one never knows. It’s wonderful your husband had such an upbeat look on life. It doesn’t do any good to be sad all the time for sure. I love your designs and hope you continue in this field for a long time.Be strong during this trying time and with friends and family the hurt will subside some but never go away.There will always be that void in your heart. Remember when your heart is empty fill it with happy memories and it will help. God Bless you and your family!!

Dee BergerMay 26th, 2012 at 11:45 am

All humanity is diminished by the death of one human being. I will keep you in my prayers.

DawnMay 26th, 2012 at 11:46 am

I am so sorry, so very sorry and my heart goes out to you; but you know he is in you and with you forever.
Dawn

(I lost my first husband in 1989 suddenly so I know your husband is still with you.)

Susanne UtlautMay 26th, 2012 at 11:47 am

My sincere condolences !

Joan NasiatkaMay 26th, 2012 at 11:48 am

Dear Sadia…Please accept my deepest sympathy for your loss of your beloved John. Also know that you will be kept in my prayers and I hope God will help you and your family through this trying time. With much admiration, your fan Joan Nasiatka

Barb ParkMay 26th, 2012 at 11:49 am

My heart goes out to you Sadia. It’s so easy for us to say that you have such great memories, and you do, but that does not fill the void of losing your life partner. I am so sorry for your loss! May you meed again in God’s great eternity!!!

Diane CockmanMay 26th, 2012 at 11:56 am

Sadia,
I know there are not words to express your loss, except to say I’m sorry. Trust and let God comfort you. I’m glad the two of you had a wonderful life together. You are in our prayers.
Diane in NC

Shirley - CalgaryMay 26th, 2012 at 11:58 am

Sadia my heart breaks for you – I too have travelled in your shoes with my late husband who battled lung and then brain cancer and you are never prepared. May your beloved John rest in peace free from pain. Hugs

Marié du ToitMay 26th, 2012 at 12:04 pm

O Sadia I feel so sorry for you. What I learned from your website over the years that I followed you is that you are just as a remarkable person as you described John. So it is wonderful that he found such a wonderful partner- I am sure you were just as much a joy to him as he was to you. My heart goes out to you.

Sharon NielsenMay 26th, 2012 at 12:08 pm

Sadia,

So sorry you have lost your soul mate. Keep the memories close and with God’s help your pain will lessen. Bless you.

Gay HanstenMay 26th, 2012 at 12:24 pm

Sadia, I remember meeting both of you at the ASG conference in Sacramento. I was drawn to your booth not only because of your exquisite designs,but because of the obvious love between the two of you. Your booth radiated love. I can only imagine the pain of losing such a wonderful man. My heart and my prayers are with you as you continue your life journey with many memories, but without John. Blessings to you and your family.

Patty GasperMay 26th, 2012 at 12:30 pm

Sadia, I am enormously saddened by the physical loss of your wonderful husband. Your message was very timely for me. Thank you for sharing with us.

Linda Tipton HenryMay 26th, 2012 at 12:30 pm

So sorry for your loss. I have been on an adventure with the love of my life for soon to be 43 years. Not all smooth sailing but alway filled with love and most of the time respect. Thanks for reminding me to enjoy today because tomorrow may not come for everyone.
Good luck on this new chapter of your life.

CarolMay 26th, 2012 at 12:34 pm

I am so sorry for your loss. Losing a husband leaves a hole in your life that cannot be filled. May you find support in your family and friends.

lauraMay 26th, 2012 at 12:34 pm

So sorry for your loss…take comfort in knowing you will see him again….

BeckyMay 26th, 2012 at 12:37 pm

Dear Sadia, I am so sorry to hear of your loss. Your tribute to him and your life together is amazing as your time together must have been. Hugs,
Becky

Marilyn GatzkeMay 26th, 2012 at 12:39 pm

Dear Sadia, You and John were blessed with a loving relationship. May God continue to watch over you and bless you with only wonderful memories of your life together. Your tribute to him is so beautiful. Jerry and I send our love and prayers. God bless you.

Doris OttenMay 26th, 2012 at 12:41 pm

Sadia
I’m so sorry to hear about Your John.
Treasure all the memories
Love and Hugs
Doris O

InaMay 26th, 2012 at 12:44 pm

Sadia, So sorry to hear of your loss. But just remembering your many many good memories of the life you had with John will bring some comfort to you. I know that you can just say his name and touching your heart with bring a small smile to your face. My prayers are with you and your family.

Midge NovyMay 26th, 2012 at 12:44 pm

Sadia, Memories are the flowers in the garden of the heart. May you find comfort
in them and knowing that others sympathize and care. I am so sorry for your loss.

Susan M.May 26th, 2012 at 12:49 pm

Dear Sadia–I wish I could wrap you up in a hug right now. Thinking of you often,
Susan

Irene FriessMay 26th, 2012 at 12:57 pm

Daer Sadia: I am so sorry for the loss of your beloved John. My prayers are with you and your family. Thank you for sharing your story of John with us. May the memories you shared fill your heart until you meet again. God Bless.

Carmen ElwoodMay 26th, 2012 at 12:58 pm

What can say? I am a lost for words. He was such a nice man and I enjoyed meeting him a couple of years ago in Atlanta. I was finally able to put a face to the person that did such fabulous woodwork. I firmly believe that God only gives problems to the people that he knows can handle it.

My deepest sympathy for you and your family.

Carol DavisMay 26th, 2012 at 12:58 pm

What a touching tribute to your incredible husband. You have my deepest sympathies. May you be granted the strength to get through this difficult time.

Jackie HeathMay 26th, 2012 at 12:59 pm

Dear Sadia… I am so, so sorry for your loss of your husband. Your tribute to him was beautiful and how I could see the love that you shared with each other. I know for now that it will be hard, but please know as days go by, you will begin to smile again as you remember the love, the joy, and yes, I think, John must have had a wonderful sense of humor to be up in a tree. Take care, special lady, and know that you are in my prayers.

diane schoenfelderMay 26th, 2012 at 1:02 pm

Your blog is a beautiful tribute to your wonderful John–you made me feel I know him! My heart goes out to you, and I send all the love and healing thoughts I can muster. Hugs, Diane

Sherry LockleyMay 26th, 2012 at 1:13 pm

I add my sympathy for your loss. I’m glad you had such a wonderful person in your life, may your memories help you.

Susan NorgrenMay 26th, 2012 at 1:14 pm

Loving a soul partner is worth the risk of a physical separation. Two fortunate souls brought together in love to enjoy, honor and live. John, has left his physical body, but has not left you. He never will, Sadia. Your love and the beautiful memories the two of you created is what John took with him into his new adventure. Later, as you heal, you will feel his love and support around you. Love is and always will be.
My prayers are with you and your family.

Diane BaconMay 26th, 2012 at 1:15 pm

Sadia, my prayers and thoughts are with you and your family. I am so sorry for your loss. May God give you peace and comfort as only He can.

MaggieMay 26th, 2012 at 1:18 pm

So sorry to hear of your loss. You were blessed to have such a great partner in John, and he with you. May God be with you and bring you some peace in all the wonderful memories you both shared. When you feel alone, God is with you. My prayers go out to you, both families, and all of your many friends.

Joyce HarderMay 26th, 2012 at 1:29 pm

Sadia, My heart goes out to you. Knowing that John is in a better place now & watching over you is very comforting. My deepest heart felt sympathies are w/you now & forever. God Bless you & yours, love Joyce Harder

Marzlie FreemanMay 26th, 2012 at 1:31 pm

Oh, Sadia, even though you knew the day would come of losing the love of your life, it does not make the loss any easier to bear. But, the memories will live on and will go a long way toward sustaining you. I know how this is having lost my love of 54 years after being diagnosed with a life-ending disease. I take it a day at a time, and I am sure you are finding a day at a time is the best way to survive the loss. He will live on in your life in your memories. And to know that one day you will be together again sustains us. Thank you for posting about John and your life together.

LizMay 26th, 2012 at 1:33 pm

My deepest sympathy for your loss – I had tears in eyes reading your tribute to John.
Thoughts and warm hugs

Dawn McDonoughMay 26th, 2012 at 1:34 pm

Sadia, I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I met John at “Ruthies” and AEC. He always had a smile and seemed to enjoy whatever was going on. What a beautiful tribute to him. My love and prayers are with you and your family.
Dawn McDonough

Judy RandMay 26th, 2012 at 1:36 pm

Dear Sadia, My heart goes out to you and your family over the loss of John. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers and wish you healing and peace.

Anita AdcockMay 26th, 2012 at 1:39 pm

Sadia, I am so sorry for your loss. He sounded like a wonderful man and had accomplished so much for the good of mankind. I lost my husband of 50 yrs. ago almost a year ago and it hurts just as bad now as it did then.May you find peace in your life and remember that God’s help is only a prayer away. Anita in NC

Karen BladeMay 26th, 2012 at 1:48 pm

Dear Sadia. How joyous your life must have been with a wonderful person like John by your side. Not all people are so blessed. I also have a wonderful hubby and as the years go by I wonder more and more how I will feel when my time comes as yours has. I hope we both can remember the great times, the loving experiences we had with our loves and keep on doing our thing. Your talent is something I admire and I’m sure John was very proud of you. God Bless you until you meet your love again.

Ginny UngerMay 26th, 2012 at 1:50 pm

My prayers are for you and your family. God will provide you, all, with comfort and strength.

Donna D.May 26th, 2012 at 1:52 pm

Dear Sadia,So sorry to hear about your beloved John. With tears in my eyes, I read your beautiful tribute to this wonderful man who shared your life, your dreams and was your soulmate. May you take comfort in all the wonderful memories you hold dear in your heart!

AnnMay 26th, 2012 at 1:53 pm

Dearest Sadia my deepest sympathy to you on the loss of your dearest John. May the God of all comfort bring peace and tranquility to you in the days ahead and may the joyous memories of your life with John sustain you until you are united again in Eternity.

Ann

GayleMay 26th, 2012 at 2:06 pm

Saida
I am so sorry to hear of you loss. Your husband sounds like a wonderful person. Please accept my deepest sympathy.

SherylMay 26th, 2012 at 2:08 pm

I am so sorry for your loss.. What wonderful memories you have and I know you will find comfort in them.
Hugs

CarolMay 26th, 2012 at 2:12 pm

My heart goes out to you and all who loved your husband. What a terrible loss for you all. I’m thankful you had so many wonderful years together to give you an unending store of memories to sustain you as you walk the difficult path of learning to live in a new way. God bless you.

Sharron SmothermonMay 26th, 2012 at 2:15 pm

Dear Sadia, I’m so sorry to hear of your heartbreaking pain. I pray God will place HIS HANDS ON YOUR HEART AND HELP EASE YOUR SORROW! You are still one of the lucks ones… because you have had that Sweet Love only a few of us ever know personally!!

Sue RaabeMay 26th, 2012 at 2:18 pm

Dear Sadia,

There are tears in my eyes as I write, and as I read. You have always written beautifully, making words come to life, and today you were able to make all of us see John through your eyes. I had the privilege of meeting him when he was covering your design booth at the AEC a few years back. We joked that my indecision just meant that I should buy them all! He was very gracious, helpful and patient. I know that life will be so difficult for you, but I hope that you will find comfort and strength in your memories, and perhaps find a way to pay tribute to such a wonderful man by continuing to create your inspiring designs. I will pray that God guides you through the pain, and is a source of comfort for you and your family. Everyone whose life you have touched is mourning with you, and we’re all here to help in whatever way we can. Sue Raabe

Denise CargillMay 26th, 2012 at 2:18 pm

Dear Sadia,

I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

Donna ScarbroughMay 26th, 2012 at 2:36 pm

Sadia, I’m sorry to hear of your loss. I know it’s an old saying, but time does soften the edges. I lost Ralph this past December and still forget sometimes he’s not in the next room. You have wonderful memories and they will be a big help. Take it a day at a time, and continue to live life to the fullest.
Sincerely,
Donna S. in Florida

RettMay 26th, 2012 at 2:54 pm

Dear Sadia, My thoughts and prayers are with you in your time of sorrow. What wonderful memories you will have of John.

Elaine ZilikMay 26th, 2012 at 2:58 pm

There are no words to express my sorrow for your loss.

Barbara RobertsonMay 26th, 2012 at 3:06 pm

Dear Sadia

I send my sincere condolences for your tragic loss. I was so sorry to hear this sad news. I pray that in time the memories you made together will bring you a measure of comfort until once again you are together forever. Big hugs!

Nita O'KeefeMay 26th, 2012 at 3:06 pm

Sadia,
I am so sorry for your loss. Treasure those memories and hold them close in the days and weeks to come. May God hold you tight in the palm of his hand and give you comfort and peace.
Nita

J MMay 26th, 2012 at 3:15 pm

Very happy you have so many GOOD memories. I lost my husband of 52 years just 11 months ago from several ailments caused by Agent Orange while he was in Viet Nam. It was expected; but, still a shock when it happened. You have made me stop and think of more “good moments” we had together. I thank you and feel for your grief.

Brenda AlburlMay 26th, 2012 at 3:16 pm

I am so sorry to hear of your loss, Sadia. My heart goes out to you. You will be in my thoughts and prayers during this very difficult time.

Janice GrandiMay 26th, 2012 at 3:18 pm

I too lost my John five years ago next month and believe me it will be difficult but you will survive and it helps to remember the good years you have had. When you really love someone they are never gone from your heart and memories.

Janice in Las Vegas

Jean LloydMay 26th, 2012 at 3:36 pm

Sadia, may you’re wonderful memories help substain you during this difficult time. You have written a very beautiful tribute to John. He is watching over you until you meet again. Even when you are aware death is coming, you really are never completely prepared for it. May you be comforted knowing others care and are keeping you in our thoughts and prayers.

Pat BAkerMay 26th, 2012 at 3:39 pm

Sadia,
We have had glioblastoma hit both family and friends. What a difficult diagnosis to deal with. Very much like a train bearing doen on you and you know that it will hit you, but noe exactly when. My deepest sympathy to you and your family. May the memory of John be with you and be a blessing. May God bless you.

JeannetteMay 26th, 2012 at 3:48 pm

My heart is heavy with sadness for you. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. But I know that sweet memories of your beloved John will give you comfort.

NormaMay 26th, 2012 at 3:52 pm

Dear Sadia, I am so sorry to hear of the loss of your husband. He was a wonderful man. We have all missed you at AEC. Please know that you have many friends who care for you

Granny (Ann Bryant)May 26th, 2012 at 3:52 pm

My sincere sympathies to you and your daughter, Sadia. It is so hard to lose a loved one. Wrap yourself in your wonderful memories of your life with John and feel warm and blessed. God be with you.

Lorraine MorrowMay 26th, 2012 at 3:53 pm

Sadia, I’m so sorry for your loss

SueMay 26th, 2012 at 4:09 pm

My deepest sympathy at this difficult time. Peace be with you.

Sue

BeverlyMay 26th, 2012 at 4:37 pm

Sadie,

Please accept my condolences on your loss. May your memories sustain you with your healing process. God with stay with you and help you recover.

DDinDFWMay 26th, 2012 at 4:47 pm

I’m so sorry for you loss. It sounds like you had so much fun with John. I hope those memories comfort you until you are with him again.

Holly PikeMay 26th, 2012 at 4:49 pm

Sadia
I am so saddened to hear this. My sincerest condolences to you during this very difficult time. Anyone married or with a partner knows this time could come, it is always too soon.

Holly pike

Gwen HilbornMay 26th, 2012 at 4:50 pm

Sadia I am so sorry for your loss. Your husband must have been a wonderful man and my heart goes out to you at this time.

MarisaMay 26th, 2012 at 4:51 pm

Dear Sadia,

You are in my prayers.
May God bless you and comfort you now and always.
Marisa

Judy BrennanMay 26th, 2012 at 4:54 pm

Sadia, thank you for sharing your John with us. My heartfelt prayers are sent your way during this time. May all the memories you and John created together comfort you today and in the days, weeks, months, and years ahead. God bless you.

Sadia A.May 26th, 2012 at 5:00 pm

Oh Sadia sorry on your loss my heart is with you. John has gone from the earth but will not be gone from your heart always is going to be in your heart. God help you to hand this difficult moment.

Ellen -L.I./NYMay 26th, 2012 at 5:02 pm

Sadia, you were truly blessed to have had such a wonderful love affair. Some people never get that chance. May you find peace in your journey towards meeting John again. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Hugs!

Mary AliceMay 26th, 2012 at 5:08 pm

Sadia, please accept my sincerest condolences. Treasure the love and memories you shared with your beloved. May they always be a comfort to you.
Mary Alice in Birmingham

Allene SnowMay 26th, 2012 at 5:25 pm

Sadia,

My prayers are still with you…angel wings to keep you strong and ease your pain!!! I will always remember the time I spent with you and John in the camper in Florida…what fun that was. Peace for you my friend.

Allene

Patricia DMay 26th, 2012 at 6:26 pm

Sadia, I’m so sorry that this beautiful love story had to end so soon. Please accept my deepest sympathies and take time to grieve, cry and heal. John is still with you, believe it. You will be in my prayers.

Louise SpearmanMay 26th, 2012 at 6:36 pm

Louise Spearman May 26, 2012 7:30 pm.

My sympathy and tears go out to you. I lost my soul mate three years ago and now I do have all the special memories. Those are the ones that linger. My best to you.

Elaine RickardMay 26th, 2012 at 6:41 pm

Dear Sadia,
Words cannot express the sympathy I feel for you at this time.
You had an amazing life together.
Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers, and will remain there.My condolences to your family.

AloMay 26th, 2012 at 6:53 pm

My deepest sympathy for you and your family Sadia. I was thrilled to see your blog update only to discover this was not the usual one that I have always look forward to.
May the wonderful memories of John give you the strength to live on. With lots of love and hugs,

susan leblangMay 26th, 2012 at 6:53 pm

Dear Sadia, I do know where you are and how you feel, my sweet husband of almost 49 years died on February 1.
I just read this and pass it on to you.

“Death leaves a heartache no one can heal.
Love leaves a memory no one can steal”

my thoughts and prayers are with you and wish you strength for all the days, weeks and years ahead. Your tribute was so eloquent.

Bobette LarsenMay 26th, 2012 at 6:54 pm

Sadia – I am so sorry for the loss of your beloved husband, John. You speak so warmly of him and I know if was a wonderful man. May God be you as you move foward with your llife. Bobette

Gisela DoewichMay 26th, 2012 at 6:59 pm

Sadia,
I am so sorry to hear of your loss, and I send my deepest sympathies. Thank you for sharing John’s story with us. He must really have been a wonderful man and partner. Cherish the beautiful memories you have of him.

ValerieMay 26th, 2012 at 7:21 pm

So sorry for your lost my prayer are with you and your family

Jean TMay 26th, 2012 at 7:42 pm

Sadia dear, so sorry to hear the sad news. My prayers go out to you. Just remember the fabulous time you had together. God Bless you.

Morgan BriardMay 26th, 2012 at 8:05 pm

Sincere Sympathy on your loss.
I enjoyed reading your story about John and seeing the photos.
The hardest thing is saying goodbye. Maybe you have strength in the coming days.

Norma KMay 26th, 2012 at 8:15 pm

Sadia, I am so sorry to hear of the loss of your wonderful husband. I pray the Lord will comfort you and your family.

LoriMay 26th, 2012 at 8:23 pm

Sadia, may our Lord be with you as you go through these difficult days ahead. What a joy for you & John to have had each other. I’ve still have my soul mate, but there will be a day I won’t, so I cherish these days like you cherished yours with John. Take care of yourself, Sadia, but cry when you need too, laugh when you can, smile when someone smiles at you, but most of all keep all of your memories of your precious “John” in your heart and take them out and relive those memories when you need too.

Margaret Mc DanielMay 26th, 2012 at 8:34 pm

So very sorry to hear of your loss.

Sandra FidlerMay 26th, 2012 at 8:49 pm

Sadia: My condolances to you: I lost my 1st husband 13 years ago and I understand what you are going thru at thise. God bless you and give you courage and peace:

Lisa B.May 26th, 2012 at 9:03 pm

My condolences.

Lisa B.
Maryland

RoxanneMay 26th, 2012 at 9:05 pm

Oh Sadia,

I am so sorry to hear of your loss. Just know you have so many wonderful friends here by your side to go through this with you and help you. You have always been such a giving and loving person. I know John knows you will be taken care of. My prayers and thoughts are with you.

DebbieMay 26th, 2012 at 9:32 pm

You have such a lovely way of expressing your life together. I am so sorry for your loss, having been thru it as well, it will be a struggle just to get thru the days & weeks ahead. Bless you and know that even tho he is gone physically, he will always be in your heart & with you forever.
Debbie in NH

Mary JonesMay 26th, 2012 at 9:50 pm

Dearest Sadia,

You have my sincere sympathy for the loss of your beloved John. The relationship you had was truly a blessing in both your lives. Not everyone has such a long loving respectful relationship and life partner as you and John seem to have. I am sure you will miss him dearly, but he will fill your mind and heart with loving memories to cherish the rest of your life here on earth. And some day you will be together again. You are in my prayers.

Pat in Louisiana USAMay 26th, 2012 at 9:51 pm

So sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you. May God hold you and your family in the palm of his hand and bring you comfort in the long road ahead.

marianneMay 26th, 2012 at 9:54 pm

Sorry to hear about your loss!! My prayers and thoughts are with you!

DianaMay 26th, 2012 at 10:00 pm

My condolences and prayers for you and your family. That was a beautiful tribute.

Marcy OwensMay 26th, 2012 at 10:41 pm

Sadia, It always been evident in all that you do, that there was a loving force in your life. My you find comfort in your memories. Prayers and best wishes to you and your extended families.

Sandra PowersMay 26th, 2012 at 10:52 pm

Dearest Sadia
Very sorry for Johns passing. He will be in your heart and memories forever.
You will not be alone. You have a lot of friends from all over the world by your side.
Your tribute was just beautiful.

Karen GMay 27th, 2012 at 1:26 am

Sadia…As you begin this new chapter of your life,may all the wonderful memories from your previous chapters created with John sustain you and keep your heart warm. Thinking of you and offering my condolences. Thank you for sharing your memories of John with us.

darleenMay 27th, 2012 at 1:55 am

Sadia, I am so sorry to hear of your loss. My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family at this time. darleen in australia

Wanda/LAMay 27th, 2012 at 2:44 am

My condolences. Thank you God for blessing Sadia with such a wonderful friend and husband and for blessing John for having Sadia walk the journey with him. I know You will continue to bless her as she feels the absence but will grow in strength. She has blessed the embroidery community so much with her multi-talents and may she continue her work while John watches over her as she did for John.

trisMay 27th, 2012 at 3:20 am

My thoughts are with you.

GeorgetteMay 27th, 2012 at 6:13 am

Mes condoléances, le temps apaise l’intensité de la douleur mais n’enlève pas l’absence ni les souvenirs. Amitiés
Georgette

Barb PaillozMay 27th, 2012 at 6:16 am

I’m so sorry for your loss. May God be with you.

MelvaMay 27th, 2012 at 7:18 am

Sadia, I am so sorry to hear about John. Please know that you and your family have my sympathy; you are in my thoughts and prayers. It is clear from your tribute that the two of you had a very special relationship.

Froma SommersMay 27th, 2012 at 7:27 am

Dear Sadia,
My condolences to you and your family
Froma

Trish HMay 27th, 2012 at 8:07 am

Oh Sadia, I’m so very, very sorry. What a beautiful story of your life together. Cling to those wonderful memories to help you thru all the tough times to come. Am praying that God will help you be strong.

Dorothy (Western Australia)May 27th, 2012 at 8:34 am

What a wonderful tribute to the man in your life.Thank you for sharing it with us.May God comfort you.Lots of wonderful memories for you.

Barbara H HandlerMay 27th, 2012 at 8:36 am

I know that his memory will be a blessing to you and your family. Please accept my deepest condolences.

Jeannie MillerMay 27th, 2012 at 8:50 am

Sadia,
My deepest sympathy goes out to you and your family. John was a truly amazing man and it was my pleasure to have known him. His life was an inspiration to so many all over the world. I know he was the love of your life and you will miss him every day, but let all of your wonderful memories be a comfort to you as you were blessed to have shared your 25 years together.
Jeannie Miller

Donna CarrollMay 27th, 2012 at 8:57 am

Dear Sadia,
I am so sorry for your loss of a wonderful husband and best friend. Try to keep remembering all those wonderful times together. My prayers and thoughts are with you.

Donna Carroll Florida

Vera HofferMay 27th, 2012 at 9:01 am

So sorry about your loss. God bless and comfort you and give you peace. You will be in my prayers.

RoseMay 27th, 2012 at 9:34 am

Dear Sadia, I am deeply saddened for your loss and love! My thoughts and prayers are for you and your family during this extremely difficult time. May God’s peace and comfort surround you always!

Jeanne AlvarezMay 27th, 2012 at 10:08 am

We were so sorry to hear of your loss. Your tribute to him of his life and of your years together is a sweet message of the love you shared. May your memories continue to comfort you as you take new steps in your life now, to face them with the kind of love and enthusiasm for life that you know John would want for you. Our love and prayers are with you.

Maxine ToyMay 27th, 2012 at 12:12 pm

Dear Sadia,
My sincere sympathy to you and your family. I lost my husband of 39 years 11 years ago. The same kind of brain cancer. We are never ready for them to leave but I do believe we will meet again. God bless you.

Kate B.May 27th, 2012 at 1:43 pm

So very sorry for your loss – thoughts and prayers are with you

Beverley HiltonMay 27th, 2012 at 2:09 pm

What a wonderful description of your lives together, Sadia. I am truly sorry to learn of your loss. My prayers are with you.

Elaine EisenbergMay 27th, 2012 at 2:55 pm

dear sadia: my heartfelt sympathy to you and your family at the loss of your dearly beloved husband.

Shirley in CanadaMay 27th, 2012 at 7:56 pm

My heartfelt condolences, Sadia. Prayers are with you.

PamMay 27th, 2012 at 8:28 pm

Sadia, I am so glad you had found your soul mate, not everyone does. I am so sorry to hear of your loss of your soul mate. May all of your memories help guide you through these difficult times and may the thoughts and prayers from so many help ease the pain from your loss.

SaritaMay 27th, 2012 at 8:29 pm

Dearest Sadia, my sincere condolence of not having him now in flesh, but I know he’s in a better place and both of you will reunite again and be forever together!

JudyMay 27th, 2012 at 9:18 pm

My heart goes out to you, treasure the memories. You have lived a remarkable life with your John. What a blessing!

Wendy JonesMay 27th, 2012 at 10:32 pm

May you truly be blessed Sadia. You wrote a beautiful tribute to your awesome husband. I pray that you will find comfort with your many memories. May John find peaceful rest. He will always be with you. What a great love story. Write the book! It will be such a source of healing. My prayers are with you. God bless you.

Fawzia SardiwallaMay 28th, 2012 at 12:20 am

My heartfelt sympathy to you on this huge loss.John is never gone but lives eternally in your heart which is new home.I feel for you and have tears in my eyes as I know it cannot be easy to move on but we pray that the Almighty grants you sabr e jameel to deal with your loss.May He grant you strenth emotionally and physically in this difficult phase of your life Sadia.
Fawzia in South Africa

LucretiaMay 28th, 2012 at 12:53 am

Wow, look at all the comments! You both have touched so many lives. May you Praise the Lord each day for giving you so many blessing :) We have been blessed by having the opportunity to have known you all. Please let us know when you are going to be back in Missouri.

Sandie A - South AfricaMay 28th, 2012 at 1:56 am

Sadia,
Please accept my heartfelt sympathy to you and your family in the loss of your beloved husband. Take comfort in all the wonderful memories you all have of your times together and know that you are surrounded with love and prayers from all over the world!
Faraway Hugs,
Sandie Archer

Carol PMay 28th, 2012 at 2:37 am

I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers. You have so many wonderful memories of your life together – enjoy them.

Jan squiresMay 28th, 2012 at 8:25 am

Sadia you are a strong, beautiful woman. Your message was so touching and I am sorry for your loss of John.

My thoughts and prayers are with you.

DianaMay 28th, 2012 at 9:48 am

May you find comfort in knowing he is at peace and you will be together again. I am so sorry for your loss.

carol cMay 28th, 2012 at 2:28 pm

I am so sorry for your loss and of the world’s. No one can ever replace such a life force as you described. The love he showed you and everyone, is what will substain you thru your future.

JulieMay 28th, 2012 at 2:57 pm

My sincerest condolences in the loss of your soul mate. You have beautiful memories.

Mary Ann KieferMay 28th, 2012 at 3:10 pm

Sadia,

So very sorry to hear about the loss of your husband. You have many wonderful memories to help sustain you. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Mary Ann
Indiana

Nan S.May 28th, 2012 at 3:28 pm

What a beautiful tribute to ones life. My thoughts and prayers are with you. May your wonderful memories sustain you during this difficult time.

JackieMay 28th, 2012 at 4:37 pm

My deepest sympathies, you were truly blessed to have shared your life with someone so special.

Bernadette Elizabeth de SouzaMay 28th, 2012 at 10:22 pm

Sadia
Please accept my deepest sympathies. May the Lord grant eternal rest and let the perpetual shine upon him. May John rest in peace.

There is a prayer I found for you.
Lord heaven and earth. I praise You and thank You for the gift of my life and specially for the gift of my partner. Even though it is painful and hurting me so much, I accept Your will in my life. Yes, Lord I give JOHN back into your arms. I thank YOU for all joyful and painful experiences which I had in my life. Lord the pain is too much. Come and fill me with Your abiding and strengthening love.

Take care and God bless.

Pat PattersonMay 29th, 2012 at 11:12 am

Sadia, what a beautiful testimony to your husband. How blessed you are to have had such a wonderful life with John.
My thoughts and prayers are with you during this difficult time. One day you will be able to remember John with more smiles than tears.
God bless.

AnnMay 29th, 2012 at 5:41 pm

Sadia,
My heart bleeds with heavyness for your loss. What gets me thur the emptyness of my dad who was my best friend is the great memories we shared. Keep those memories close to your heart,in your thoughts. Just remember he is always with you.You & your family are in my prayers.
Ann
Texas

NormaMay 29th, 2012 at 10:46 pm

Dear Sadia,

My thoughts and prayers are with you at this sad time. May you find comfort in memories of happy times spent with the love of your life. God bless you.

Norma
Missouri

Monica PowellMay 30th, 2012 at 8:35 am

My dear Sadia,
This message comes with so much love and wish I could wrap you around in it -such precious memories of a dearest husband is amazing in the times that we live in. May you experience God’s loving mercies and comfort as you come to terms with your loss. So much love sent across the miles. Monica

BettyMay 30th, 2012 at 7:29 pm

Sadia, I am so sorry for your loss. May the love of God be with you.

Betty
Australia

Linda, USAMay 30th, 2012 at 8:25 pm

Sadia, So very sorry to hear of your John’s passing. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. God Bless.

Rachel TMay 30th, 2012 at 8:34 pm

Blessings to you, Sadia.

gayleMay 31st, 2012 at 1:56 am

You are in my thoughts and prayers. You have a lot of wonderful memories that will always keep John close to you. Love and Hugs from Australia.

StichelbieneMay 31st, 2012 at 3:43 am

So sorry to hear of John’s passing. May you find find peace during this time and keep on remembering the great times together.

sueMay 31st, 2012 at 10:35 am

What a beautiful tribute, Sadia. My sincere condolences to you and your family. You have now joined a group of ladies that everyone fears but most wives join. May you show others the strength that you have and continue to be a leader among us all.

ShirleyMay 31st, 2012 at 11:35 am

Sadia,

I am so sorry for your loss, I have been away and just now gotten to my email. I hope your wonderful memories will bring you some comfort.

Shirley
NY

Faith L FennerMay 31st, 2012 at 11:12 pm

Sadia,

My sincere condolences to you and your family. Hold fast to your memories and know that John is at peace and free from pain. May God comfort you and yours through this time of sorrow.

MellanyJune 1st, 2012 at 12:38 pm

Thoughts and prayers from here in Missouri

SantiJune 1st, 2012 at 5:23 pm

Sadia
My heart goes out to you..what more can I say…
Your friend
Santi

GingerJune 3rd, 2012 at 1:49 pm

Sadia,
I too have had this heart rendering anguish of losing a soul mate. Nothing in life ever prepares for it if you had no notice as I had or two years of heart breaking waiting as you did. They will always be in our hearts until we meet again. My love and healing thoughts go out to you, eventho there is no real ‘healing’ from this loss.

JanJune 4th, 2012 at 9:32 am

I found your site today. So interesting. So sad for you. I will follow your news. Condolences from Troy Mo

Mary P.June 16th, 2012 at 2:27 am

Dear Sadia,

What more can be said then “God chooses wisely and recognises the most beautiful angels to bring to heaven”. May He give you and your family now strength to carry on until you all meet again. My most cordial and sincerest condolances*** Mary, Melbourne, Australia

Karen WarrenJuly 15th, 2012 at 7:41 pm

Sadia,

I’m so sorry, you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Karen & Jim

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